Refelction - Having no driving motivation to work

As of recent I haven’t had any drive or motivation to work with the project, it feels at any time I’m about to write something or do design something all the energy had been drain out of me, it also doesn’t help that I keep waking up a lot later than I would have liked. I think I for this reason why I feel this way is because of the pandemic, the pandemic has been going on for a year and a half now and to be honest I’m just sick of it. I’ve missed so many opportunities I missed so much of my uni experience due to this pandemic, was unable to meet up with my mates, couldn’t come to the studio and work there, couldn’t go back to Winchester because of the constant lockdowns. I have stuck in my room, and because I am in my house I am surrounded by noise and distractions, it all becomes too much for me, I worked a lot better when I was in my accommodation, but I can’t go back because of the constant lockdowns, also doesn’t necessary help that the teaching have been all online, so that means that even if I went back I wouldn’t be able to interact with people. Just sick and tired of this pandemic and the second time this is affecting my work life I am a HSP or a highly sensitive person, ‘HSP can be defined as acute, mental, and emotional responses to external or internal stimuli’ Scott, E., (2021), to put in English I am easily affected by my environment and if the environment is bad it significantly changes my emotions and moods, This can includes:

· Easily bothered by sudden loud noises.

· Trouble by disorder in the environments

· Unduly affected by the emotions and states of other people.

· Deeply troubled by conflict or violence.

· Sensitive to foods, smells and environmental chemicals.

Scott, E., 2021. Highly Sensitive Person Traits That Create More Stress.

So since October my environment has rapidly change in the span of a couple weeks of staying in Winchester for a month then after that I came back home and that sudden change affected my mood and without affecting my mood affected my motivation and drive.

References

Scott, E., 2021. Highly Sensitive Person Traits That Create More Stress. [online] Verywell Mind. Available at: <https://www.verywellmind.com/highly-sensitive-persons-traits-that-create-more-stress-4126393> [Accessed 19 April 2021].